I have won a battle

I have been trying for a week to cut down drinking, though I still drink very much too much. I also stopped smoking. I wasn't a very heavy smoker - 2-5 a day and I've been on and off since fourteen (mostly off).

Earlier tonight I really really wanted more beer and wanted to smoke. I came very close. And then I didn't.. partly because I knew that I'd feel crap in the morning (not hungover but regretting it and feeling sick if I smoked) and mostly because .. I know Col would be disappointed. He'd not have said anything or criticised me but I know how disappointed he would have been.

I have a long, long way to go with the alcohol though.